It's All Ready Gone!

Sad to realize that you've already lived more than half your life and that so many of the hopes, dreams, desires and accomplishments just didn't happen or turned out what you aspired for. Even in re-evaluating, maybe having to go in a different direction and still not being anywhere near what was planned! And it's all over, already, not time enough to start a new "life time" achievement! Never even accomplished the original! Now all that's left is just existence. Sure one can always keep trying, and maybe become closer, but I never got near enough to even see or taste the other side of the apex or climax, kind of like just dropping off where you're at! I know a lot of people did get the satisfaction of some, it not all they were shooting for, lucky them, amazing that some can go so far on the same time frame and work as those who don't seem to get anywhere! Even when I found a point of accepting and satisfaction over my meagerness, other circumstances came along to diminish and breech even that! I guess it's kind of frightful to see where I am at!